Deer are easy prey. Yesterday, we went on a mystical tour with my partner and his boy up up up toward Mount Samson and we discovered the Lyell Deer sanctuary.
As I stood amongst the deers, I felt like I could overpower them, snap their flimsy necks, trip up those skinny legs and easily hurt and kill them.
The deers main defence is being unspottable. This is a common analogy used in depictions of the silent f: fawn, a trauma response. This animal camouflages to protect itself; to blend into its environment in order to evade detection from predators.
The deer in the headlights is the imagery used for the freeze, trauma response. There is so much confusion, fear, panic and overwhelm the body shuts down and immobilises itself till danger passes or the threat believes it to be dead.
This is the first time I have been upclose to a living deer.
I understand more, now.
There is more empathy and compassion for the fawn and freeze survival modes.
I understand the need to camouflage and the necessity to hide in plain clothing.
How else would the child I once was going to be fed, cared for and protected from the other dangers around me?
How else would I have narrowly escaped being locked up in a psychiatric ward?
How else could magical beings have the ability to operate in workplaces, income factories, or corporate organisations?
The modern witch can be crucified. Particularly, in the western system for mental health -- they can lock you up, shoot your self esteem down, drug you up and shun your presence.
The depths of shame and stigmatisation is abhorrent with mental illness and spiritual gifts.
Thank Goddess, that there are alternatives and acceptance.
Don't for one second think that trauma responses are bad and negative.
Our brains are absolutely hard wired to get us fed, looked after and protected.
But in the same breath, it will keep you comfortable, stuck, and limits your growth when you are stuck in repeat and are on an EVERLASTING INCOMPLETE LOOP of survival patterns that is no longer needed in the now.
There's no coincidence that this arises after the chaotic energy of the eclipse has shone a big freaking flashlight on the shadows of our fears that have been directing our movements, the panicky activations and self-imposed limitations.
The ways in which we are still downplaying ourselves for the widely accepted norm.
To assimilate rather than emerge from the passenger seat in our lives.
To continue to stand still rather than freely move with the rhythm of our souls.
Are you stuck in repetitive patterns to cope with life?
Are you consumed with the past and afraid to be your true soulful identity?
Are you an intuitive trying to push your way through your business to the detriment of your health?
I welcome you here.
I recognise you.
I celebrate you being.
I send love into all the unknown areas of your heart and the parts of you hiding there.
There is support available send me a PM.
